El Nido, Palawan
Shot and Edited by: Verniece Enciso
After blogging for 7 years, I thought that accepting that not everyday is your day might be easier. I thought that since I’ve been doing this for so long, I would know where to get the inspiration to get things done would be easier by now. Or the fact that since I’ve been doing this for almost half my grown up life, I would know what to do when things don’t go the way I planned or hoped they would. To be honest, there are days where I don’t know if I’m walking the right path or have made the right decisions. There are days where I don’t know if the people I’ve trusted have good plans for me or if I’m in their plans at all. There are days where I think I need to look for something else to do for the fear that it might be too late for me to do anything else. There are days where I have the drive to go back to my first love, blogging, but I get discouraged by the fact that everyone seems to stop reading little by little and are now unconsciously, always in the search for videos to further explain things to do or learn something from. Should I put my efforts on something else? Should I do something else? Should I stop this? All these things run through my mind and I constantly search and pray for the answers day in and out.
Then I remember that this is part of it. That if we don’t doubt what we do then we’re not growing. That this is an opportunity for me to reevaluate and think of ways to be better. That while I’m doing this, I should also trust the plan that was laid out for me. 7 years ago, when I started blogging just to document my daily angst and feelings (lol), I never knew that it would be something I would make money from yet looking back now, all the training life gave me back then moulded me to reach what I’ve reached today. When I started to take photos of what I would wear, I never knew that it would lead me to wear, collaborate and represent brands I only used to dream of buying. When Verniece and I had our very first out of the country trip for our blog, we never knew that it would lead to us visiting tens more and transition ourselves to travel and lifestyle bloggers. When I would tirelessly read books and wish that I would someday write one myself since I was 11 years old, I never knew that it was destined to come true.
I know I’m not alone when it comes to this. I guess it’s become our generation’s sickness to always question and doubt. While it may be hard to be in that crossroad, whatever you may be uncertain at the moment, remember that you’ll be okay. Don’t let this transitioning stage of your life keep you from still living it at a day to day basis. Don’t sulk, be lazy or just give up. Continue doing what you know, while trying to do the things that your heart tells you to and remember to always trust the road that you’re meant to take because did you know 5 years, 5 months, 5 weeks ago, that you’ll achieve what you’ve achieved now? :)